Darkness

Breathing and dancing on the day of the dead

Sweet november arising on a night next to a brush fire

I can smell in the air the scent of hotel tombs

Death wrapping me like a treasonous delight

On the cold nights of the month

I run and escape the rules

Looking at the half moon, staring in the darkness

I hear the owls and bats and wolves

Fear takes over, along with hesitation

The pearlescent rain, soaking me to the bones

As I lay shrivelling alone in a dark corner

Remembrance and adoration, I scream

And gasp for air, and welcome Death

As I fall into a dream of what-ifs …

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Slipping into the other side

I hear again your whispers and greetings

Moans of desire and passionate welcomes

Memories may break my fall into oblivion

Yet cemetery secrets hold tight my heart

Keeping it captive and stifling

I remember when I used to gamble

Love was a game, testing limits

Tasting you like a thirsty animal

Finding my way out of the woods and its prison

Now, between sleep and dreams, it’s where I am

I belong to the border, where none is reality

But where both intertwine and create my mind

I feel the touch of sunlight your fingers once brought

And the wind songs I could hear through the open windows

I felt like falling into quicksand, with you always nearby

To save me and take me up the cliffs

We would see reefs and wrecks in our imaginary future

And we would create origami hearts when ours were broken

I feel the pain going away, and I remember

All the hazy days spent in bed, making memories

I want that delirium to last forever, the warmth to wrap me

The smell of that amber romance to intoxicate me

You discovered my unseen layer

The one I wanted to keep secret and buried in me

You touched every part I used to hide

The thought of it quickened my pulse in the past

Now it keeps darkling my heart, my dirty soul screams

And prays and hopes for absolution

Only notes of nostalgia remain, away from reality

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And when I wake up … dream far away

Death welcomes me, giving me a new goal

The one to find light … or maybe darkness

Because it is where home is now