Dark Thoughts

Sitting here thinking, I’m praying

Mind's racing, as I keep going insane

These impossible words rising up from the flames

Of the corner of my occipital lobe in the back of my brain

Where all my fears take hold

Shakes me before turning me cold

All these doubts firing up my brain wondering

About my son's sperm doner doing his time

Got me praying he never comes out alive

Part of me wanting him to fuck off and die

The way he treated me, and left me to raise my boy

With no one but myself to do the job right

Never put up a fight, cuz for my boy I’d turn to Ash

Knowing if he came around today

It would be click clock get back bang

I’d kill him... for my boy I’d lay down and die

And all these thoughts keep spiraling in my mind

And I know... this is like a Greek tragedy

Maybe something Shakespeare would have wrote...

They say you should never wish death upon someone you once loved

But for him I’ll make the exceptation

His crimes sexual assault on a child...

and did I mention armed robbery

Guess they wouldn’t, why would they...

Fucking drunk every weekend, trying to say he’s a good man but he lyin'

Soon he’ll be dying, and incased in hell's fire

The damn liar couldn’t even spit the truth if you gave him the opportunity...

Nothing more then a user, abuser, manipulator on the whole other level

Fuck face don’t even try to come at us

... selling drugs to my kid's cousins and having them spend the night

Like you ain’t nothing more then a damn blight

Got me tossing and turning wondering

If you're the bitch of some man in prison

Hoping he does you like you did me

And forces himself on you at night

Praying you never see the light

Fuck it I’m done... cuz you ain’t worth the same breath I breathe with my son

He’s gonna be someone else's boy some day

You won’t get to have no say... cuz all you wanted to do was play...

Signed your crazy ex bitch