Like the roar of thunder
Surging across the dark night sky
My insecurities are raging
And I’m not really sure why
Like the sea,
So vast & deep
All the vulnerabilities in my heart
That I always seem to keep
Conversations in my head
Playing over and over
It’s these very thoughts I dread
I try to forget, I try to let go
Of these flaws & imperfections
That I don’t care to show
Feeling exposed, so raw & bare
Anxiety so strong, worn as pieces of flair
My thoughts are fleeting
& my feelings, too
I try to find the words
To explain this all to you
I don’t want to fan the flames
Or mess with the fire and get burned
Serenity & peace of mind
Are the things for which I yearn
Sometimes the best way to say something
Is to simply say nothing at all
Yet over and over again
Like London bridge, I fall
Thanks to the self-talk
In the most dangerous place,
my mind
Even though to myself, I know I must always try to be kind
It could be one small setback
That I perceive as a total fail
This constant judgment of myself
Is merciless to no avail
I’m stuck & paralyzed
By unnecessary fear
At this rate, I’ll run out of fuel
Before I even put the car in gear
But even through the darkest night
The sun always comes at dawn
I’ll find a way to muster the strength
And conquer my mind with brawn
Although I feel like I’m being buried
With impending doom
I know I’m just a seed that has been planted
& like a beautiful flower, I’ll bloom
Facing upward toward the sun
Teardrops from my green eyes,
I’ll intentionally let them run
An imperfect mixture of water & light
Through self-love & acceptance,
I’ll continue to fight
& like a soldier coming home from war
Wounded in the battle, but still honored with a star
I’ll bare my scars
For these are imperfections, too
I’ll put myself back together
& I’ll use them as the glue
Pieced back together
With the fault lines exposed
I know this is the only way
That I will flourish & grow
-a.c.
About the Creator
Angela C
Aspiring Poet
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