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Conversations With Myself

1. A Self-Motivating Talk

By Trey StevensPublished 6 years ago 3 min read
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I've had these dreams.

They've been going on for a few months now and.

I don't, they're deep! And I mean real deep!

Let me just start...

As I lay my head down to go sleep.

I quickly fall into a dream.

But this dream ain't a dream.

I find myself locked in a room with a table and a view.

At first, I was fucking piss scared.

Why does my mind betray me like this,

I thought When I was awake.

But then calmed and took a seat at the table and waited.

The first few dreams nothing.

But then something,

Across the table sat me but I was a younger age.

I think about 6 or 7, I knew by the face I was making what just happened.

And then he said:

"Never again, this is the bottom. Oh.

Never again will I feel this pain or humiliation again.”

I awoke, it was deep.

But I got depressed because I was stuck in that dream.

I wanted to know what it meant. I remembered that day and felt all that pain.

I took a shit and I cried. I remembered that all so well.

And then I remembered just what I said.

So back to sleep it was the same fucking cycle.

Each dream I talked to myself at younger ages.

I consoled myself and got finally unpacked all that baggage, and tossed all of it in the trash can I burned.

It was so relieving each day to wake up feeling so much better.

But then came the dream of dreams.

I swear to god this was the dream that just made it all clear.

I was standing in front of a front door of a house.

It was quiet I opened the door and walked in.

I saw a nice small living room it wasn't extravagant as I walked into the room I saw a man standing.

In the center of the room. It was me.

Before I could say a thing. He said:

"Shut up. Listen. We gotta fight. That's what we do. Don't you ever fucking quit!

There's a fire in us.

Right now you just gotta trust.

Just yourself.

Take the jump, the of faith. And I promise you our future will be great.

All we wanna do is create. No matter what it is, scripts, music, a mother fucking comic.

You have the means and the ambition deep inside you just.

Let go. Let it all flow.

Doesn't matter if it doesn't make sense.

Trust yourself, your heart and your gut.

Never use your brain in matters of opportunity because we both know.

We'll talk ourselves out of it. So don't think just go and do it.

Because at the end trust me.

It'll be worth it. -"

I woke up.

It's a dawn of a new day and age.

I have a fire burning inside of me.

Passion inspiration.

I need to create, I crave to grow deep inside of myself.

And know me.

I trust myself.

I love myself.

I need to show myself that more.

And when times get hard I will just remember:

That I’ve already felt the pain of being at the lowest,

I’ve survived three suicide attempts,

Including almost dying three times

From three separate operations.

I’ve survived being abused,

Misused,

and misguided.

I’ve learned from my mistakes,

Some of them I learned late.

I’ve found my road,

My path.

I’m more aligned with myself,

Than I’ve ever been.

My destiny.

inspirational
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About the Creator

Trey Stevens

A writer of Poetry, Short Stories, and scripts.Twitter: @Treysativa

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