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Control Serum EPC

A Collection of Poetry

By Phoenix Jr.Published 6 years ago 6 min read
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With all that's going on lately

I can't even stand on my own two feet

I remember time of blissful messes

Times of unforgettable dresses

Remembered times like these

Were times only I could see

True love could well be the death of me

But only I could see

The sweet dreams in your eyes

Followed by your humble gestures

And childish laughter

This feeling isn't in my nature

So as long as I'm alive, Imma

Make sure you're happy with every laugh

Make sure your smile is here to last

Make sure you're getting over your past

Make sure you're happy with every day you have, I'm sorry if I can't give

everything that you ask,

but bringing you happiness

has always been my number one task

I pull over

Not hungover

But I'm shaking

Almost breaking

I've been aching

This Feeling in me

I find flakey

Oh you broke me

Don't provoke me

Imma sittin' duck

Runnin' out of hope

So I guess we weren't everything we asked

Maybe we were doing things our ways forgetting who had asked

But I'm wondering on who should ask

What is my number one task?

To keep you happy till the day I die

Even though I'm not there

I will be there, answering everything you ask,

give an honest answer,

some advice, or a little bit of helpful criticism

To make sure that you're happy with everything that you have

To make sure you're the best I ever had

To make sure you're happy,

even though I'm not there,

to pull you in,

to give you hope,

and help you cope,

my only hope,

you're not alone,

pick up your phone

Cause I'll be there

To Make sure I'm there for you

All you gotta do is let me in

Temporary

I identify as an abstract of life

Forming only to be alive

To formulate a plan

A plan I was never given

Never given a chance

A chance to a better self

Cause when life got me on my knees

crying and balling

And I'm dreaming of falling

To my very death

I look above and see the clouds

Watch them disappear

And welcome stars

In the night sky

I realize all of this shit

Is just Temporary

Yeah all this shit is just Temporary

Cause when life's got me down

And I know no ones around

I call that shit temporary

Fuck it, I know it's temporary

Relieving my lifes lies

Open up my eyes

And peel away my pride

I was sanctified as a little boy

Now I'm looking up at god

Like where the fuck you at?

I'm sitting here pleeding for my life to be a better one

But I'm sitting here bleeding hoping it'll be a better one

I visualized my life in a mirror

Looked at myself, and it made it clearer

That this broken glass

As I punch a hole into my own reflection

I value my own complexion

At this point in time

I realize all of this shit

Is just Temporary

Yeah all this shit is just Temporary

Cause when life's got me down

And I know no ones around

I call that shit temporary

Fuck it, I know it's temporary

Control Serum

I feel the rhythm,

but I never feel the drums play,

I feel the Love,

but I never know what to say,

I love you,

but I don't know how to say it right,

I hate him, but I can't do anything right, I'm just not Human,

I'm a little bit of sadness and I'm Sorry,

I just don't know what to Do,

I really wanna be with you,

but I'm sorry I can't help but to think about you, and it's curving my perception, and I don't question it,

but I love you

and I wouldn't want it any other way.

Controlling, Controlling, Controlling

Girl, you hit me like a control serum

Got me feeling this type of way

I wanna walk away

But everytime I see your face

I know you are not to replace

Fuck, got me under a control serum

Controlling over me, I'm a proper guy

But you made me into a sharper guy

A nicer guy, one to always call you at Night

And say your favorite goodnight

Dwelling over You, I'm sweeping under you

Knock you off your feet

Pop us into a another Disney scene

With camera lights,

I can't see what I've seen

Been under something,

I can't control me

To much make up, I had a make over

To the next stop, till I pull off the drop

Watching you without your top

Ooh

I guess I'm losing control

I'm losing my mind

and that's when I told them

She controllin' me, controlling, control

Man, she got hold on me

I made up my mind

As far as my eyes can see

I wasn't to be found

Just know I was under some type of

Control Serum

Losing focus, hocus pocus,

poof

I'm gone

Future

Common courtesy

Yet I ain't given any, oh I see

I'm not the one you want

I give you my all

And you don't even see it

I'd risk it all for you

And you don't even see it

I am who I am, cause who I am

Ain't the same when I'm not with you my dear, but fuck it

Common courtesy

Would be the death of me, oh I see

A perfect picture

Hoping my picture perfect is with you my dear,

paint it all with my tears

I paint it all in my fears

I pack a lot of my pride

Cause all I do is just hide

I know I'm empty inside

And I rather just die

I Don't look so good when I cry

These feelings are mine

I know it's all in my mind

But I'm still coping, it's fine

I feel it coming, and I'm fucked up

It's wild, I love you, but I hate you at the same time, but fuck it

Common courtesy

Is only for the strong I see

I'm filthier than the sequel

Of a real deal prequel

Focusing on my future

But all I'm feeling is torture

Coming in like a vulture

That'll pry my life away

I live today

But I'm not happy where I am

I don't even wanna stay

I've done prayed

So my life would get better

But all it did was give my life a whole lotta shit to put up with

And even though I say it now

I hate you, but I love you at the same time

It's like my life playing tricks on me

Jumping and hopping

Get these fucking ticks off of me

But the only common courtesy I see

Is that the future's got a lot to hold

And I've got a lot to unfold

But it's cold

And I'm tired of being alone

Silent Nights

Now if you told me moments like these would be my loving ones

I'd look at you, and wonder where you're coming from

Because moments like these

Are the ones that keep me up at night

Cause what if lonely nights

Were Only Silent Nights

To accompany you at Night

Now I'm not one to keep you under

No I'm not one to keep you under

Dreaming out the window

Pouring rain and thunder

I can see the clouds and my Silent Night

creeping under, now understand this

I am not one to fill your wonder

Open your eyes and make us see eachother

Yeah, I'm just Hoping you ain't come to seek another

No I've been too distant from my past

But never ever far away enough

Yeah, I was still wishing upon night skies

then I guess they were filled with lies

No I've been waiting on you

When there's nothing left to do

I'm just hoping that you'll come through

Now if you told me moments like these would be my loving ones

I'd look at you, and wonder where you're coming from

Because moments like these

Are the ones that keep me up at night

Cause what if lonely nights

Were Only Just Silent Nights

To accompany you at Night

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About the Creator

Phoenix Jr.

I am a bundle of emotions captivated into one hand of someone who lives their life wondering if they should agree with their head or follow their heart.

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