Chance

I wanted to hear you say those words

Tell me you love me, we're done with the worst

I was there for you, I went through hell

I believed in you when they said you'd fail

Where were you when I was at my worst?

Screaming for help, you laughed at my curse

I'm struggling now, beginning to drown

And where are you but nowhere around?

I fought for you, deafened your name

You kicked me down and played your games

I've been here before, I've felt this pain

You close the door as I call your name

I know it's my choice, it's all on me

But where would you be if I'd done the same?

I question myself, am I this weak?

Countless times keeps me on my knees

I'm begging for mercy, help me please

Am I alone down here? Can't you hear my screams?

I'll pick myself up like I have in the past

But how long until you come knocking?

Wanting me back?

You fool me with charm, I believe you again

But perfection is an illusion

Even high I know that

You expect so much, but give so little

I'll be lost again soon, and stuck in the middle

If I stop this now I can turn it around

Find the strength in myself to figure it out

I'll try I swear, as hard as I can

Pick myself up, alone I will stand

It will be alright, my life will change...

Then a knock at the door..

And it all falls away