Can't Take It

I can no longer take this

My heart in displacement

I long for a form

Of recuperation

Id mold it myself

Maybe ill waste it

My time along with it

Cascading frustration

I keep it suppressed

Submerged in this stress

hope noone acknowledges

all smiles i present

i look in the mirror

the world with two faces

am i one of these

or am i mistaken

perhaps im in a dream

someone please wake me

in limbo it seems

this nightmare i'm shaking

its hard now to sleep

deprived now ive reached

this level of sickness

inclining in me

im searching for light

while trapped in this darkness

theres no one to catch me

cause i just keep falling

thought she was the one

it turns out im wrong

its my fault apparently

and i knew all along

I want to star over

break out a new sheet

and write so many words

what youve meant to me

by now its too late

ive lost all my chances

ill deal with this pain ive caused

no sense in me asking

i know of my problems

youve seen it firsthand

my choice is to fix it

what makes me a man

or else ill fall victim

to this recurrence

therefore i'm dismissin

before it resurface