Can't Let Go

If I could take back the mistakes I created in my past, I would in a heartbeat. It's no fun being constantly reminded of what you done by the people whom love you unconditionally.

Those same people seem to think it's normal to throw someone's past back in their face each and every time they mess up. Why not build me? Why not lift me up? No, instead they embed it into your mind of your mess ups.

I'm just tired of being frowned upon and accused of "playing Victim" when I try to express my feelings on certain things. Being talked over, told how to feel, and even losing my voice during conversations where things still remain the same.

I'm dealing with people who ALWAYS think they're right about everything, never seeing how sometimes they're in the wrong. People who hold on to every little thing you do and say long after everything is all said and done.

I've already wrote my wrongs, I've said my apologies time and time again, and I've explained myself even while turning blue in the face. My past is my past for a reason, I can't take it back and nothing will ever be erased. I've made peace with my past, and I've forgiven myself as well. I don't want to hear about what I've done every time I make a mistake in my present, no need to reference that with my past. As long as they continue on with this unhealthy/toxic mindset of theirs... Then our friendship will no longer last.