Bus Ride

It was a 40 min ride to school and back but, they were cherished moments

Most of the time I'd listen to music while staring out the window of a small bus

I had a Playlist with specific songs to play

Songs that made me think of being free

This free I expected after high school

And thought it'd just arrive

That's my hopes out the window, the thought I left to die

The walls felt closed in but, my surroundings made me feel as if I was adventuring

I thought of anything and I was lost within the lyrics

The melody made my body feel warm and in tune

The soothing beat wraps you around its arms shaking you in excitement, making your head bump back-and-forth

Sometimes my mind wondered questioning how I really felt

I began to recognize that music was more than an escape for me

It was my way of numbing myself

I seemed to be as calm as the river and have a temper when the wind makes the water clash against the rocks begging to be alone

Except, I am earth with water

I will always flow even through obstacles but, eventually I'll meet my downfall

Without being able to recognize the spark to my problems, I wouldn't picture a world where I love myself

Music is my water and my mind is my rock

As soon as the wind skates towards the wrong direction, I forget my place and lose to tension

Snow drizzles above of the earth and covers my soul

Misplacing a piece of the puzzle

Shaving the green off the trees and replacing it with a frozen heart

That's when I decide to play a song

Because Earth has to cry for water to help

These are thoughts from a bus ride which I'd use to hide, feeling settled once I arrived

Whether it's to school or home, I've tried to forget

And still sometimes I'll hear a voice by my step

Saying, "Come over here and stop trying to ignore me. I wanna be a pair, I know you're lonely"