Brown Skin Girl

The instructor said,

Go home and write

a page tonight.

And let that page come out of you —

Then, it will be true.

I wonder if it is that simple?

I travel the road often traveled,

All the way to Yellowpine,

Where my yellow house,

Sits among the yellow weeds,

Eighteen years young,

With brown skin,

Brown skin graduate,

CONGRATULATIONS GRADUATE,

I am close to home,

Proceed with caution,

I walk slower,

Proceed with caution,

I walk faster,

PROCEED WITH CAUTION,

Avoiding,

Late night text,

Come,

Come,

Come outside,

Why.

Won’t.

You.

Come.

Outside.

Late night thoughts,

Come,

Come. Come. Come.

Visit me,

Avoiding black boy,

CONGRATULATIONS GRADUATE,

I finally make it to my home sweet home, again.

I struggle to put my true feelings on the paper,

Exposing my inner self,

Exposing the woman behind the girl,

The bolder,

Louder,

Stronger voice,

Behind the softer,

Weaker one,

My animals are coming to see me,

I do not know them,

At least not well,

At least not completely,

At least that is what I like to tell myself,

I appear angelic,

Yet I live to make sounds,

To numb,

My tongue,

ATTEMPT to experience,

Through old McDonald,

He had a farm,

Ee-i-ee-i-oh,

Sounds the animal stole from me,

Excuses,

For,

My,

Weakness,

I sneak out to the pound,

Defy my mother,

I sneak the dog into my house,

While she is in Vegas,

Playing hide and seek,

Seeking nothing,

Secretly despising,

Another secret,

Everything I am doing,

Not doing anything,

I am miles away,

Secretly hoping to become an animal,

Where the wild things are,

Howling at the moonless sky,

The corner,

Addiction,

They are not related to me,

I cannot share their blood,

I am an animal,

The human calls me,

Faking ways,

I love you,

Faking,

Does not love,

Fake,

Humans do not love,

Fake,

I hate,

HATE, HATE, HATE

Is a strong word,

To describe,

Feelings,

Oink!

Sweetness tells me we’ll take it easy,

I want to scream,

Take it fast,

Skip the BULL,

Go Straight TO the crap,

Hide behind the smile,

When I want to cry,

Hide when I see that dog

In the streets,

Bad Girl.

To replace animals,

Animals with humans,

Humans can not love you,

Not like animals,

You will never need humans.

Not like an animal,

Who’s a good girl.

Cry,

Until you bleed,

Your tears are poison,

Poison to your recovery,

Poison to the wall,

Decay,

My silence,

Hits,

The drums,

Of the expectant,

Judgment,

The fear,

Fright,

Of failure,

Exposing too much,

Raw,

Gullible,

Yearning for acceptance not from peers,

But from another,

Another who would rather hurt others,

Hurt others rather than help,

Love,

Loving on the corner,

A quick hit,

Of escape,

From the reality,

THE ANIMAL,

Haunts me,

CONGRATULATIONS GRADUATE!

WELCOME TO THE GAME OF LIFE,

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