even after you’ve broken me
you’re still dropping me
you let me fall with no intention of ever catching me
adoration
i love you,
too great for what we felt,
so we made it our own.
i adore you
we said it fit us perfectly
but it never could
not with how we blew like flames in the wind towards each other.
a simple phrase meant so much but to throw it all away was never the plan.
the mere idea of of ending it all keeps me up at night.
but if that’s what you need i’d sacrifice myself to keep you happy
i won’t let you know,
i’ll suffer in silence as long as you’re happy then silent i will be.
toxic right?
it seems that those who decide that they’re toxic never consider what someone else could be immune to.
a year in a world of poison makes one consider what it would be if we stopped calling it poison.
venom is only venom if we let it hurt us.
but you’re still too toxic right?
footprints
my soul is covered in footprints
left by those i’ve loved
they left a lasting impact
even though it’s tough
it’s truly hard to swallow
that everyone you meet
is someone who was destined
just to up and leave
cracks in my armor
i try to put up a wall
no one knows i’m breaking
i talk, i laugh, i smile
but inside i’m building,
preparing for any other attack
i let my walls crumble around you
and yet it wasn’t enough
a broken heart
projected through too many smiles
a laugh just a touch too forced
a voice not as loud
yet through all the silly projections
my mind still knows
it breaks through when i’m at my weakest
let’s me dream of loving you
and you loving me
it breaks me every morning
and tries its hardest to heal me every night
i’ll never say anything to you again
because that’s what you wanted
that’s what you wanted when you broke my heart
“i want to be left alone”
i say that to my heart
to my mind
i want to be left alone too
i just don’t know how to be alone when all i wanted was to love you
seasons
seasons change
like feelings do
an' i love you
to a different tune
maybe we went too fast
maybe we weren’t meant at all
but maybe, just maybe you didn’t even fall
i know you said you did
but how could you turn it off so easily
so suddenly
how could you become my worst fear in minutes
how did you fall out of love
with what made you fall in
maybe i'll never understand
but someday
i hope you realize why your seasons change so easily
deceit
loving you
was an ocean of thorns
covered in silky satin
so pretty
until you dive in
emerging from satin covered in thorns
but you’re apathetic
and who cares who gets hurt
as long as you make it to the roses in the sky
glimmer of hope
tears ensue
because everytime i talk to you
another glimmer of hope brightens through my cracked walls
after all this time i still believe that one day it could be me
i don’t dare let you know
every spoken, typed, written word is a letter to you
hoping one day you could see all the love in my heart
reserved just for you
despite every heartbreak you’ve put me through
vanishing
someone once told me
“friends are like stars, you can’t always see them, but you know they are there”
i made that my inspiration
until even the stars began to vanish
sad poetry
when all you write is sad poetry
when you used to write with imagination and joy
you begin to lose hope that your words will ever become happy again
rainbows of colors turn to grey
all you can wish for is that one day, color will return
and your sad heart will write bright fairytales once again
only one
some people think you can only have one soulmate
i disagree
i believe they’re everywhere
footprints left on your soul
by those you were meant to meet
but were never meant to stay
an almost fling
you’ve hurt me so bad i can’t even write about it
why did i allow this to happen again
is it because i love you?
please don’t hurt me again.
what was real to you,
was it always planned to be a sometimes thing,
an almost fling?
ruined
when something good comes around others just can’t wait to ruin it, can they?
you think you’re finally happy
you’ve found something to make you smile
in a flash, it’s gone, left in its place a ghost of a smile
you don’t know if there’s any use in being mad
there’s no more anger left inside your heart
you’ve lost it all, along with your pride
laughter fades, smiles fall
there was no time to savor it all
salt in my sugar won’t make your any sweeter
but you throw it in anyway
i’ve become who i’ve never wanted to be
this new side of me, out for other people to see
you’d think, after a few years the surprise, the pain
would wear away, that i wouldn’t be shocked when someone breaks me down to nothing
but i’m still surprised
it blows my mind, that someone would ruin another persons happiness
for nothing more than satisfaction
it’s all i can do
i’m watching,
waiting,
smiling in the background.
it’s all i can do to kee from falling apart
a simple smile,
a casual wave,
a gesture towards a pretty face
it’s all i can do
to stay in a corner
waiting for the right time
stalling until i find the perfect line
words carefully chosen
every conversation planned
it’s all in my head
but it’s all i can do
i t s a l l i c a n d o
butistayquiet
laughing at jokes that aren’t funny
letting it go when someone doesn’t understand
brushing it off as “tired” when i’m asked
“why don’t you talk much?”
i don’t need to talk to hear MY voice
i’m always listening
watching
waiting fo the right time
to let you know what i’m thinking
but i’d rather keep it all inside
and let YOU talk
because it’s all i can do to make you feel heard
it’s all i can do
About the Creator
Siarah R
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