Breaking Free... Again

When I feel sad my mind floats to numerous things as I try to find the source of my tears;

But it seems as if it's all the pain from all my years.

I feel a sense of loneliness and despair.

Even though I am surrounded by those who care.

Why am I broken inside ?

Just wanting to curl up in a ball and hide.

I use to be full of life ,

But now I can't look past every moment consisting of strief .

I use to be a bold fighter ,

But my flame has burned out much like every lighter.

I use to be happy as can be,

But now in the mirror sadness is all I can see.

I use to be everyone's rock,

But now I am a lonely pebble trapped beneath the dock.

I use to be vibrant and free,

But now I am locked in my mind and I can't find the key.

I want to be all these things once more.

I want to be full of life and knock down every door.

I want to be a courageous fighter.

One whos fire never goes out, only shines brighter.

I want to be happy forever and ever,

And to see a tear again; never.

I know the real me is still inside.

She just needs someone to be by her side.

She just needs help and care.

She just needs to know you are there.

She just needs to know you see the same person when you look into her eyes.

She just needs to know that it’s time to rise.

She just needs to know the same person is inside.

She just needs to know you will always be there and tag along for the ride.

She just needs to know you forgive her for it all.

She just needs to know she can get back up after this tremendous fall.