It seems as though
It doesn't matter how hard I try
To better myself and move forward
I still spread my toxicity to all those who encounter me
Is my desire for development all just a lie?
Let me give you an example;
I once gave up on someone
Who was begging for a helping hand
Because it seemed too tiresome
And too bothersome.
I let her stay buried in the sand
She was drowning in,
- Just because I'm insecure and mad.
A couple of years later
I met a boy who jumped into my life
So willingly, aiding me to be greater.
He did nothing but try to
Live and smile by my side
But I pushed him away without explanation.
I did not care to see his worth
I guess I'm simply a sadistic traitor.
Now let me embark
On the most crucial event to date.
He showed me patience, growth, and love
Can you imagine someone being so great?
I couldn't for the longest time,
After all, my entire being felt like
It was made to resent
And rage against all the beautiful parts of life.
I had viewed myself as a broken doll
All dirty and stepped on
In the middle of an abandoned street.
But he picked me up,
Fed me,
Clothed me,
And stroked my hair when I needed
Somebody.
A year later; both of our identities
Concern one another
We fight sometimes, but our laughter
Fills the atmosphere more than
Any other.
Have you guessed already
That I poisoned him too?
I didn't mean to, I swear
I did not know how weak I was
Or what to do.
I should hardly be surprised, though,
My middle name is fool.
I wasn't planning on writing this today
Or on any other day
I'm stubborn and prideful
But all of this is powerless
Against the universe's fate.
J. Cole is by my side preaching
About something I obtained
This thing most people spend their lives
Searching for.
I'm alone now, the way it should be
I can't trust myself to behave
I can now see myself for what I am:
A monster who cannot be tamed.
About the Creator
LIFE MAZI
A RELIC OF GROWTH
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