In a matter of seconds we went from
being everything to each other to nothing
You don't believe in Breaks but
You wanted this
Everyday
to
Nothing
one phone-call
one sentence
one soul crushing word
...Break
"You think the voices are greater than how much I love you"
This is the worst feeling in the world
This feels like the end
this feels like the end of us
It feels like you don't care
You are sorry
You say you love me
You say you won't break up with me
but it just doesn't seem like it
No one ever said it would be easy
people give up on love
before it has even started
I go through the pain
chaos
worry
anxiety
depression
voices
Hell
because I Love You.
"You ruin my happiness"
I had to clear away everything that
reminds me of you
Your wrestling hoodie
The necklace
The prom bear
The I fucked up bear
Even the pictures on Instagram of us
happy
All gone because I can't bare to look at
them
and think that we were happy
and aren't now
"I don't want your hand out, I don't want help from you, I don't want help form your nanny"
Now every time
a happy conversation
a upbeat song comes on
or I see something that would remind me of you, I shutdown
the pain is too much to bare
so I go numb
so I don't have to feel a god damn thing
so I don't have to think of you
what you did to me
what you are doing to my heart
"No one fights for three months and doesn't realize that there is something wrong with us"
"I want a future with you but I don't even have my shit together 100%"
The funny thing is that this hasn't even hit me fully
all I am worried about is You
all I care about is if You are sane
if You are stable
if You are happy again
if You are alive
"You need to let me fail, to learn from my mistakes"
I feel lost
you feel lost
neither of us knows what to do
except this
Fine, then here
have your fucking Break
- B.L.S
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