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Break

You Wanted This

By Brittany SmithPublished 6 years ago 1 min read
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In a matter of seconds we went from

being everything to each other to nothing

You don't believe in Breaks but

You wanted this

Everyday

to

Nothing

one phone-call

one sentence

one soul crushing word

...Break

"You think the voices are greater than how much I love you"

This is the worst feeling in the world

This feels like the end

this feels like the end of us

It feels like you don't care

You are sorry

You say you love me

You say you won't break up with me

but it just doesn't seem like it

No one ever said it would be easy

people give up on love

before it has even started

I go through the pain

chaos

worry

anxiety

depression

voices

Hell

because I Love You.

"You ruin my happiness"

I had to clear away everything that

reminds me of you

Your wrestling hoodie

The necklace

The prom bear

The I fucked up bear

Even the pictures on Instagram of us

happy

All gone because I can't bare to look at

them

and think that we were happy

and aren't now

"I don't want your hand out, I don't want help from you, I don't want help form your nanny"

Now every time

a happy conversation

a upbeat song comes on

or I see something that would remind me of you, I shutdown

the pain is too much to bare

so I go numb

so I don't have to feel a god damn thing

so I don't have to think of you

what you did to me

what you are doing to my heart

"No one fights for three months and doesn't realize that there is something wrong with us"

"I want a future with you but I don't even have my shit together 100%"

The funny thing is that this hasn't even hit me fully

all I am worried about is You

all I care about is if You are sane

if You are stable

if You are happy again

if You are alive

"You need to let me fail, to learn from my mistakes"

I feel lost

you feel lost

neither of us knows what to do

except this

Fine, then here

have your fucking Break

- B.L.S

sad poetry
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