11:36 pm.
I was a bit traumatised
I'm doing everything wrong
He knew, he approached
and started yelling.
Apparently I have brain damage.
He told me I have brain damage.
I certainly hope not
treating brain damage is hella expensive.
Or if it's true I guess I could just deal with it
and hope to die sooner.
It's not my fault he's never had a teenage daughter before.
It's not my fault I'm not as good as he expects me to be.
I'm so fucking sorry to disappoint you.
To have you deal with a monster like me.
You seem to appreciate others
compare them to me sometimes.
That fucking hurts a little.
Just a little cos you do it so often that I got used to it.
I got so used to feeling useless and being treated like I have brain damage by someone who used to be my hero.
It hurts to know I am disappointing you repeatedly.
Believe me it doesn't look like it but I am trying so fucking hard.
Why can't you see that?
All I want is a little appreciation.
A little tap on my shoulder that tells me I'm doing great
I guess I never did great or anything good for you to appreciate me.
I'm jealous of them.
Them you see.
I will never do great.
I guess you just have to accept that.
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