My skin is a farse
Seduced by lines and shapes colored in carefully
Bones shaking violently
Because the Identities kept in cages
Scream
Suggest
Different lines
Different colors
This way
This way
It must be this way
Because the picture it creates
The safety
The solitude
Is addictive
False
But so sweet that the bitter aftertaste
Of repression
Is
Tolerable
Oh because with these shards of stained glass
I can become beautiful
Tempting
Desirable
And then
I can push them all away
Revel in my own torture
Let the velvet black envelop me
For what
Whom
In some sadistic way I believe
This
Self mutilation
Of identity
Will find me love
If
One were to pass my tests
Fight me
For me
Do the work for me
Keep me afloat
Call my bluff
Willing to love someone so wishing
And romanticizing solitude
Whilst silently screaming for companionship
Then
Only then
Could I let myself be loved
And whilst this war
Wages
Constantly
I am also a bystander
Calling my own bluff
Yelling my own name
All too aware of this insufferable game
The consequences
The frivolousness
But they are numb
Paralyzed
Silence and shut out by the others
Left to sit patiently on the sidelines
Because when there is calm
They will come forward
With peace and understanding
And
The cycle will begin again
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