Boulders

"i love you baby girl"

i type "i love you too"

but i don't press send

I stare at the screen.

the thoughts roll into my head like boulders

destroying a building.

i try to hold them back, but they don't stop.

they keep going.

and eventually i let them.

of course, i send the text.

i can't let him know that i doubt him and his

bulletproof heart.

later on, he asks if i'm ok

of course, i say i'm fine.

but, he doesn't believe me.

he keeps questioning me like i'm a criminal sitting in front of a detective.

eventually, i get tired of lying.

i tell him how i really feel.

thinking he'd walk away,

thinking he'd be done with me at the sight of trouble,

he stays.

he helps

this repeats.

only this time,

the boulders stop.

the thoughts go away.

at least that's what i hope.