Bones

Allow the words that flow from my mouth to pierce you like a bullet to your heart.

It took every ounce of confidence to say this,

But I’m going to say it.

I am everything that you said I was,

And I am everything that you said I wasn’t.

It took the repentance to comprehend that I could be forgiven.

And,

Although I’m still unable to fully grasp the concept that I am forgiven,

There is this sense of peace in my heart that allows me to feel like I’m loved.

Sufficiently loved enough to hold my head up high whenever I see you passing by.

Sufficiently loved enough not to cry when a thought of you crosses my mind,

Can’t you see,

I’m trying to forgive you, even though you can’t see how much your words really hurt me.

Can’t you see,

I’m trying to forgive you, for the actions you made towards me,

Bottom line is,

YOU HURT ME.

Understand,

It’s hard remaining to stay strong when you feel like all this time the only thing you’ve learned how to do is hang on,

Trying so hard to Forget it,

Trying so hard to Bury it.

But, although it's buried,

and the flesh has decomposed,

The thing that’s left is,

The bones that are exposed.

It can’t be buried, because the truth still lies there.

So,

Understand,

This is a journey I am trying to take,

Not because I want to,

But because I need to for the sake,

Of my freedom.