Bluer Waters

One call...one leap of faith caused us both so much needed change

I was yours from the very first touch

It didn't take much for me to feel it...the rareness of US

I knew I was going to get lost in you

and I was ready for every bit of the journey

As scary as it was I still felt no need for hesitation

My trust in you came quick and honest and that remains

My need for you came strong and genuine

The connection was deeper and more real than anything either of us had ever felt like we were worth

I brought out the you in you and you showed me how to be more me than I have ever allowed myself to be

My unconditional love for you helped you see that all that you have always been was enough... more than enough

Our love helped us both see how valid and priceless our wild thoughts and dreams are and have always been

Us made us see how no one else had ever really seen us

Not the real us

Not the unfiltered unapologetic uncensored US

We can always share everything with each other without any worry of judgment

We are the same and still different enough to make the other feel whole

We are from the same place 🌚

You and I becoming WE made us both see everything in a different color... everything became cloudy and yet gave us so much clarity into ourselves

We make more sense than anything has ever made

The way your eyes feel on my skin

The way your voice feels on my heart... the way your words calm me is unexplainable yet I have so many ways to describe it

The way I am with you is effortless

I don't need to adjust a hair on your head or thought in mine

All of this... all that we are... in all of its rarity but it wasn't really enough

Not really

Not enough to really have you

Even though I know that is something we both are... ENOUGH

All of our flaws and missteps are part of what make us perfection in each others eyes

All I can do is all that I have ever done

Yet you give me thanks for it

Thanks for loving you the way should have always been loved

Because I think you never have believed you deserved it before us

Just as I didn't

The love... passion... connection between us is real

That can never be questioned

It is something to be held on to and not feared

All that we are is all I have ever needed and would sustain me without any end

It's that thing that so many never find

We are effortless

We were luckier than you realize

What I am and what you are makes us the perfect equation

Minus negative outside factors

Somehow while I was lost in the bliss of us the influence of other factors made us variable

Loving you is one of the easiest things I have ever done

Yet somehow I have ended up in this undesirable race for a life with you

I have never been one for competition

I feel what is meant for you will be for you

I have ended up in this contest for something I thought was already ours for the keeping

Something I knew others would never compare to

Something I thought could not be shaken or questioned

A fight I never thought I would need to be a part of

All I am doing is what I have always done with you

All I am doing is loving you the way I feel you need

Yet the outside factor trying to change its formula in order to treat you the way I always have without trying somehow counts for more it seems at times

Somehow the change to more of the same captures your attention Somehow past becomes appealing

All I am and all I do to make sure you feel it and have no doubt about where my heart belongs has somehow masked itself as a competitive nature that I do not possess and do not wish to

I will never let my love and respect for you be downgraded to some contest

All because the outside factor is attempting to match my effortless desire for you

The desire I have for US and your heart

Now something else holds you

Change with a self serving agenda is temporary

What comes natural is what is real

What comes natural is what remains after everything else has faded and reverted back to the old norm

Nothing can be anything else for too long

Time is what everything needs to show its real intention

Time can also force regret to stay in the forefront of your mind and never let up

Being me... the me I am loving you... the me loving you helped me feel safe enough to let free has somehow put me in 2nd place in this race I didn't agree to join

I have became the runner up to a what if... a maybe.... an I'll try... a we'll see what happens

The possibility of repair of a sunken ship has became more alluring than the peaceful waters you once couldn't get off of your mind

You are choosing duty over heart without even recognizing how damaging that it is to your soul

This is a path that could keep you from being the person you want to be and living the life you so desire... choosing sensible over magical in all aspects

Because you are so much more than sensible

You are bigger than you believe

What is meant for you doesn't require anything to be what it is not

What is meant for you doesn't come only in convenience

It doesn't require anything to change its natural form and flow to fit

What is meant for you doesn't require you to go on an expedition to find the goodness in it everyday

You shouldn't have to dig for goodness

When something is meant for you all you can see is the goodness in it

What is meant for you doesn't require anything but you to be you

What is meant for you doesn't cause destruction and require repair over and over

What fits does not need to be forced

What is real doesn't find relief in your downfall no matter what pain you caused

What is real wants to see you brought up to the place you should have always been

What is real comes naturally like a wave... strong yet with an effortless all consuming ease

What is meant for you is yours without question