Biblio-graph

The pain is so deep I can hardly breathe

I was so young, only a preteen

Foster care by the time I was twelve

Why did she do this to me

Visiting days were brief

I thought she would fight for me

She was everything to me at that point

She robbed my innocence mentally and physically

One day she left me in the hands of a stranger

How could she not care that I was in danger

He forced himself on me, I was not even a teenager

Many times I laid down ready to die, full of anger

Left me in the park, lost and alone, this was a game changer

A godly stranger found me, he was my saver

The pain of this nightmare cuts deeper than a razor

I’m still asking god why I found her almost 20 years later

She hasn’t changed and had no remorse for what she did

Locked me in closets so she could give her body to men

I still remember like it was yesterday, why

She’s now an alcoholic and panhandles to get by

I had to let her go one more, very last time

It is fucking me up, piercing deeply inside

So many moments I have blocked out on purpose

Yet so many memories woke up and resurfaced

I feel like she came back to finish the mental corruption

She’s no longer the person that I cried for and mourned

As she left and walked out that fucking door

I’m paying for a childhood out of my control

Praying why oh why did you give her my soul

I don’t know from here, even where to go.

-h.b. Woods