Between a Blink

I can still smell the scent of vomit and blood

from that friday night

I can still see it splattered all over the white tiles

I can hear the gulps and screams of fear

calling from within

It's only been two days after

I am numb

My eyes are sore

I can't let any tears out anymore

There is never a warning

An advertisement to prepare you

For the worst

It just happens

Between a blink

There's no time to act strong

Your inner self is set free

For everyone to see

Who you truly are

In your vulnerable peak

I still can't sleep properly

If i do

I dream of the sirens screeching

The paramedics running into my home

Then my eyes get wet and blurry

the tears stream down my face as fast

as the ambulance had drove to get here

That is the only time i'm allowed to cry

The only time i let myself fall apart

At night,doors locked

so i can unlock all that i store