Better Than Today

Endlessly they picked on me

Just couldn’t get enough

All I could do was walk away

Pretending to be tough

But inside I died

With every eye

And every jagged touch

How could they not see my pain

Would they ever get enough?

So on that day I told myself

That I would cry no more

As I ran up to my room

And quietly locked the door

I planned and schemed

and came up with ways

To make my exit

On this day

Finally I figured out

How I would die

Without a doubt

As I reached for a glass of water

To wash the pills away

I heard a voice tell me

“Today is not the day”

I looked around

And shook it off

Since I was all alone

Then I heard the voice again say

“It is not time for you to come home”

I looked into the mirror

And saw exactly what they see

When they call me out of my name

And make fun of me

"Worthless," "Loser," "Deadbeat," "Pathetic," "Idiot," "Freak"

All the words that scorned me

The words that made me weak

I realized that this time

I would not let them in

The control they had over my life

I would never let it win

I flushed the pills

That almost

Took my life away

And then that voice

Came back again

And I heard it say

"Well done my girl

For listening

And overcoming fear

I made you how you are

How you think and how you appear

They can only test you

With their tongues and with their eyes

It should be their words not them

Or yourself that you despise"

With that I felt empowered

To live another day

To go out and make a difference

And show them the right way

So the next day I went back

With my head held high

My feet moving forward

Eyes looking towards the sky

Thank you for your guidance

Your will and your way

And letting me know

That tomorrow will be better than today