Before and Now

Before, I had dreams and knew where life was going.

Now, I fear what’s to come with this future so unknowing.

Before, I could wear what I wanted and feel just fine.

Now, I’m afraid some outfits aren’t so straight, they’re out-of-line.

Before, I held hands and kissed boys freely.

Now, I must hide again a part of me, yes, really.

Before, I knew my sisters would be safe.

Now, I hear most boys think it’s okay to rape.

Before, I felt fearless and held my head high.

Now, I’m scared that any moment I could die.

Before, I could stand strong, firm and tall.

Now, so many want my kind to fall.

Before, marrying you would have been easy.

Now, we see being gay still makes them uneasy.

Before, I felt safe in our theaters, clubs and bars.

Now, hate and violence occur no matter where we are.

Before, I felt that equality was finally a thing.

Now, I can see that was just me imagining.

Before, I felt just fine.

Now, I should’ve seen those signs.

Before, I guess I was living in a lie.

Now, all we can do is hope, pray, and try.