I noticed I repeat things,
Because I’ve been ignored.
I noticed I try to prove myself,
Coming off as defensive,
Because I was a complete liar half my life.
But now that I’ve changed,
I haven’t noticed these chains,
That was still in the past,
Still affecting me now.
I am honest now, but I may try too hard,
To gain the respect for others.
Is it because I’ve started to take notice of others’ perceptions of me?
Or is it because
I was never in control of my life,
Because I let the fear get to me,
In every situation of my life?
In terms of jobs,
In terms of people,
Because I was too weird,
Because I was too shy,
Because I didn’t like to talk too much,
And that was a problem,
Because I didn’t know what to say?
It was a problem,
Because I didn’t try.
It was a problem because I kept myself bottled up,
That I didn’t learn how to be upfront with people
And honest with myself.
I didn’t even know who I was,
What I was meant to do,
Until I have finally opened up now.
At times, I still do have my moments,
At times, there are my worst.
But I won’t let those moments get to me,
Because I am still trying,
And I am still moving on.
I am strong,
Because I have carried on
And because I let go.
About the Creator
Alex A.
I write poetry and blogs about my curiosities in life. Why do we stress? We do we settle for less? Whether it's heartbreak, inspirational writings, I'll just write away~
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