I don’t know how to be normal
be a man
take a stand
hold my own hand
because you taught us that all we were good for was
a little fun
to sit in the sun
never run
always be pretty
never gritty
never a bitch
“well why do you let him talk to you that way”
you say
putting me on display
but I can’t be a bitch
so I just sit, q u i e t.
but, I think you know
because you threw me in this ditch
in the process of telling me to stay a while
but hold my tongue
but stand up and rise up
but don’t throw up some suggestions to help at work, they’re not important
don’t throw up your hands in unity girls, you might knock someone off their high horse
don’t throw up your food, unless you remember to lock the bath door
don’t let them see you wipe off the returned dinner
you might make someone
S A D.
interesting enough that our pain
with no gain
no restrain
always ugly
always damaging
always disgusting
made you
S A D.
but while you’re sitting there all sad
don’t choose to forget that you’re the ones who
punished us
made us believe that all we could do was
plant a seed
and need and need
and bleed and bleed and BLEED
and be q u i e t.
maybe you could be quite
and find a way to put those 'supportive' words back in your mouth
since the only time you seem to take them out
is when you find the need
to tell me how to bleed.
maybe you could sit back down on that high horse
and ride it right out of town
but don’t forget your crown
cause you can go be the king of that town
of millennial nice guys
cause I don’t owe you sex for those kind acts and great words of ‘encouragement’
cause I don’t need them
cause I learned to live the first 12 years of my life to live without them
cause I was too busy being taught
don’t leave the house
without your trusty mace
no bathroom trips
without your right-hand man, your ace
no sitting too close too man or too far,
or he’ll have to put you in your place
no leaving the house without makeup
no one wants your real face
but remember,
we only want natural beauty
we only accept natural beauty
we only allow natural beauty
even if it means
thousands of dollars and a scalpel
or sitting in a room with a woman and tweezers
and risking your eyesight for pretty eyes
or ripping your hairs out of every pore
on your now tender body with hot wax
you seem to forget they used that to torture them that way to get them to talk.
so I guess that when you talk
that’s why I feel tortured
that's why it burns when you talk of natural beauty
and why pretty skin and
girls so thin
or perfectly thick
though just a trick
feels like hot tar.
I guess that’s why it hurts so bad when you talk of how the strong are too butch
but the weak are a waste of space
you know what,
give me a place,
show me a trace
of the line
where your perfection lies
I’d finish the race if I could but your iron maiden words
cut me too deep
and I’m tired.
for that race, my legs won’t carry me
that line, my eyes won’t let me see
but at least I have pretty eyes, right?
you did a great job of teaching us that your beauty
that’s pain
with no gain
no restrain
always ugly
always damaging
always disgusting
will least keep
us q u i e t
and leave you
c o m f o r t a b l e
About the Creator
Emma Lynn
A college student in love with art, writing, poetry, slow fashion, and the environment.
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