Back When Sleep Was a Thing

I reek of sleeplessness

if such a thing has a smell

it is funny when I think back

to the days when I could sleep

whenever I wanted and there were

so few distractions from getting rest

and now I feel embarrassed for

even thinking about taking a

nap even though I know that I

could use one most of the time

back when a legitimate schedule

was in place those were the days

and there was consistency

having a child has changed me

some for the better and some

well for the worse at least it seems

some days I don't know if I am

coming or going and I forget what

I am even doing at any given

moment or day or week

that's another thing for sure

I used to have a better idea

of what my thoroughly planned

day was going to consist of and

now I just think in my head

whatever happens... happens