Baby Girl

I'm lying in bed, crying.

I was sobbing hysterically.

Couldn't even form any words.

Lord, what about "Little Lisa"?

She's done.

Her window of time has expired.

Yet she is still here. That's the one thing I could never get back...TIME.

So now what?

She's a lost wanderer, imprisoned in the tower of my mind.

She cries.

She's dead.

How do I accept that? How do I embrace that? How can I, when I don't want to?

My baby... what have they done to you? The only ones that can see you are me and God. I'm so sorry for what happened to you. It's not your fault. It really wasn't. What could you have done?! You were just a baby! You didn't even know how to protect yourself from them.

Shhh...please don't cry anymore. It's killing me to see you like this. You know I can feel everything you feel. I feel your pain. I can see how deep they cut you...how bad they burned you...how long they beat you down. It's okay now, baby girl. No unjust deed goes unpunished. God sees everything. He saw everything and He knows the truth.

Come baby girl, let me hold you...

Baby girl, there were a lot of dark memories, but there were good ones as well. Cherish those.

Try to focus on those. It's going to be okay. We've had a long run. You are strong and you are brave. You did the best you could to protect us, and you did a great job. Don't believe me? It's true! Look! Despite everything, we are still here.

Baby girl, this is extremely difficult for me to say...

I'm almost afraid to tell you because you've been hurt enough, and I don't want to add to your pain.

You know I love you, and I've always wanted the best for you, but I have to let you go.

I know it's hard baby girl, but it's going to be alright. It is for the best.

You see, you need to rest so I can have my turn. It's true that we will never get our childhood back.

There are no second takes or second chances in that aspect.

I cannot go back in time and let you relive a "normal" or at least better childhood.

But what I CAN do is learn new and better ways to deal and cope and live a happy life!

Don't you see baby girl? That is the key to your FREEDOM!

I promise, your suffering will not have been in vain.

We are going to make it, for the sake of your memory and for the sake of making new memories... better memories. So here's to you baby girl. RIP.