Awakening Amnesia

How do I vibrate low

When I’m feeling so high

How can I say no to drugs

And not say goodbye

I FUCKING HATE DRUGS

It took everything I knew

And gave everyone I love

A new thing to give hope

I FUCKING HATE DRUGS

Because it took all the love that was meant for

me

It took my daddy away from me

It numbs my sister from the lost of her hopes

and dreams

And taught my brother evil lies

It took the love of my life

But I was the one that laid him up

To sacrifice

It took all the friends I loved over the years

So yes,

I fucking hate drugs

And all that they did

Drugs gave me seizures at 3 years old

And made it so my mom would

Always see me as a devil

Drugs made my mother push me away

And the lack there of kept her at bay

But really it is this society I hate

That makes everyone feel they need these

things to ever feel okay

Drugs made me distance

From my aunt and my uncle

The ones I loved like a

Second mom and brother

Drugs made them lie

Or maybe it was the system

But either way it’s all just a wary kind of

Distance

Drugs are trying to

Consume the last friend I have

She doesn’t speak on it often bc

She’s stronger than any Dad

But I know her mind plays with her

Just as mine has played with mine

I just hope that she can withstand the test of all

time.

I just hope every time I call

She will always be alive

And I hope when her time comes

I’ve already said goodbye.