john noakes
Bio
I like to be vocal at times it helps
Stories (13/0)
For You
Today is a new start. A chance for us not to fall apart. A chance I could capture your heart. I want you more everyday. Everyday it seems you slip further away. Not today, today I will be mindful. Today I will show you. I am love. I will surround you. I will consume you. You will feed my need to be love supernatural. You make my spirit restless. I am waiting for you caress. I am waiting to feel the warmth from your smile. I love the way walk. I will always feel this way. I wont let today be another disaster. Falling farther falling faster cant stop. Today we will be born again. Today is where forever starts. Today we will mend our broken hearts. Today we will be us again. Today we are whole. Today our souls will know. We are love eternal. Today we are one.
By john noakes7 years ago in Poets
Smiles
Today is all smiles. It's great to see that glimmer in your beautiful eyes. I wonder if I could persuade you to look past my imperfections? Not see the flaws I see in myself. Today is all smiles. I love to see you this way. I miss the way you used to look at me like I was something special to you. I want to be closer with you. I don't know how to get there. I feel like I am lost. I catch myself holding my breath. It gets hard to breathe. I hate wanting like this. It's like an addiction. Maybe worse even. I don't need to be anything but happy. I want you to believe me. I want you to see it in me. Why do you always make me feel this way?
By john noakes7 years ago in Poets
The Phoenix
Today was meant for flying. Today there are no tears for crying. Today I am going to shine. Today I am no longer blind. I am a barer of light. I am the cold darkness of night. You may never even see the beauty inside my soul. I am the thing you cannot break. I am something you shouldn't put down. I'll be gone. I have made a decision. Now the thought leaves my mind. You are a memory. A point in time. The wind is just whispering. Today was meant for shining. I don't need the answer. I don't need to question why. There is nothing that I cannot take. I know in my heart. I am the one that would not break. Today I'm out flying, shining, today I am the lightning.
By john noakes7 years ago in Poets
Coming Around
She is out there. She is slowly killing my soul. I turn to her for comfort. She does not love me. I would dare to say that she did not care. I am tired of losing. I am tired of settling. Tired of her sick sense of truth. I can not take this. I will not accept this. Kharma killing me. I can not reject this. Fences unseen only to be revealed after the fact. Just got to stay away from you. Should not be hard without you being around. This is the part I hate. I am letting go of this. Kharma.
By john noakes7 years ago in Poets
What's Going On?
What if I gave you all of me? Would you ground me? Would you drown me? Would you ever doubt me? Would you want to be around me? Do you think I would still be fighting? Would you have ever stopped trying? Would I still be here crying? Always on the brink of that which is great. Will we ever find the time to truly appreciate? No we watch as it disintegrates. All the goodness of this love is lost. I give you a piece of my soul. See it once was a diamond now its turned back to coal. Never again will it sparkle and shine. Running in circles inside of my mind. Thats whats going on.
By john noakes7 years ago in Poets
Don't
I just stood there jaw dropped open staring into the darkness in utter disbelief as she stood there steady lying. Mocking me as a cold wind blows while flashes of light ignite in the night sky. She is always singing that same old song I thought to myself as she sat there strumming away. She don't think that I know she don't give a fuck about me. I can tell that because of the way she won't look into my eyes anymore. There's just something that makes me uneasy about the things she says because if you will lie about the stupid shit that really doesn't matter, what won't you lie about? I sit here with her, but she doesn't even really notice me. Outside I hear a storm moving in. It circles around over the mountains before it begins to shower everything that is not sheltered from it. The sky weeps as I struggle to stay awake. How much more of this will I take before I break? You just lay there lying. No shame at all on your face. And I wonder.
By john noakes7 years ago in Poets
It's Raining
It's going to rain today. I can feel it in the air. The skies are getting darker. There is little light to be seen. I can hear the mistakes of my youth. They seem to echo in my mind. Calling me out until I can no longer keep them hidden away. They will not be denied. It seems that seeing is not believing. I know how hard I try. Nothing is ever good enough for the thing that torments my tortured mind. What might have been. What I should have said. What I might have done. It all seems to rush at me. I am left in the confusing clouds. They have always gathered here in the darkness. I am always seeking,but never finding. It's always sneaking. It's always hiding. It leaves my soul wanting. I watch you sleeping. You seem so at peace. You will never know all that I am tormented by. I wouldn't put that on you.
By john noakes7 years ago in Poets
Skank
You sicken me with all of your lies. I am not for you. You are like a disease. You kill all that is good inside. I don't want you. Think about it. I think that you are shit. I know that you are shit. You kill dreams. I want to scream out loud. Throw away everything. I hope you got your fix. Dead to me that is you. No more will I run to you. There is no place in my life for you. What did I ever see? Forever more nothing. You turn the world to black. I'm never coming back. I was never important to you. I am just your latest fool. So I will try and play this cool. I am not as strong as you think. Said the heartbroken fool to the skank. I don't care if you live or if you die. Look up to the sky. Close your eyes. There is nothing for you to think about. That's strike three now you are out. No more than a summer fling. I hope your happy. I won't touch your lips again. You like sucking the dicks of old men. Now there's no more to think goodbye to you unbelievable skank.
By john noakes7 years ago in Poets
Lissa
You have got to be kidding me. I have uncovered it all. I have seen everything. Thinking that this love would last. Thinking I might be the last. These are the things that will never come to pass. If I were a breath I would be the last. I can't take any more. I know you don't care. I look to the sea. All I do is stare. We were once so close. Now your so far away. You want me to go. Wait you want me to stay. You don't know what you want. You can't stay away. I want a beautiful love. The kind that will last. You were never mine. You cant let go of the past. Im not your future. Just a bitter memory. I won't go away. You brought me here to this place again. Now you want me to go away. I am just a loser here in this fucking game you play. You think so wrong I'm not right. Said all there is to say. I hope you find a sunshine. All I see here is grey. You get so mad you're just like me now, you just want to run away. There is no honesty. You were just a way to carry me to my destiny. You play your games as much you like. Makes no difference to me I know who you really are. Ugly.
By john noakes7 years ago in Poets
Now & Then
Why this lack of honesty I thought that we meant more than that. Stop with your confusion. I know you're stupid like that. I have this from every other angle. You know exactly what it is that your doing. I know what type of person you are. Thinking you are getting away from all of your deceit, but there is nowhere for it hide. You could just have been honest with me. Now there's nothing left for you here. Now you are all on your own. Leave for today. Leave for tomorrow. I really don't care where it is that you go as long as you leave me alone. I wanted for you to be in my life. I wanted you to stay, but all that you do is lie and lie so now I am going away. So tired of these games that you play. I am going to lose my mind. That's all I got that is all that's to say. I will find a better love cause yours wasn't real anyway. Now and I wonder if you ever changed...paya
By john noakes7 years ago in Poets
End Day
All the lies you have been feeding me are unsettling in my stomach. You are not who you say you are. You are not even half of that. You speak in untruths. You make me doubt myself. We are not one like the oneness you speak of so oftenly. We are not of the same fire. We were not forged in the same flame. You seek to deceive cause your never satisfied. I said I would do anything for you, but still no loyalty. I only asked this one thing of you, but you could not. Now all we had is over we will never speak no more. So I'll have a drink then two then three then I'm bound for the floor. Which is where I would rather sleep. You to me will always be nothing but a whore. So take your things, and take mine. I will be able to get a chance to find my piece of mind. After I fill my lungs with smoke I start to unwind. Today's the day we end this charade. I am not blind.
By john noakes7 years ago in Poets