When the dawn arrives
I wake, bleary eyed,
questioning what today will bring
Or dreading
As I drag my tender body to the mirror
To stare at the knots in my hair
& food still in my teeth from 3 days prior
There is a heaviness residing in me
A blinding, black fog
Smothering me,
like a hand cupped mercilessly over my face
I'm stood there, naked, pondering,
& begin I consider my whole self
The self that's image only represents chaos in this moment
is the same self
That chose to rise in spite of it
there is strength in disorder
and I hold my own hand
when taking myself to the shower
to cleanse myself of the past weeks stupor
I know that it will return,
maybe tomorrow, or another day soon
But for now
I sit in my robe and acknowledge that I am here,
Sparring with deceitful thoughts
as an army of one,
And that is enough
About the Creator
Victoria K
24 yr old woman. Writer of mental health experiences/feminism/poetry. Lover of coffee. Hater of single use plastic.
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