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April 6th, 2018

How I Feel

By Tiaunna N.Published 6 years ago 1 min read
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i dont know what's worse...

crying and hiding or crying out

in the open

i don't know what is sane

being sane or insane

i'm tired constantly and just

hoping that the days just go by without

any sort of meaning without any regard

i want my days to have no meaning

and live life in a big blah

i feel like i felt when i was young

years ago when i wanted to curl up

on my bed and dream happy dreams

and think of things i wish would happen

from fiction books i've read

i feel like i'm a living corpse

no life in me what so ever

i fake a smile to make those around

me feel better about themselves

i smile at the faces who don't smile at me

i laugh at things i don't want to laugh at

i giggle when i know i have nothing

to giggle about

at night i pray to my dead grandmother

asking for advice asking just to hear

her voice one last time to tell me

strawberry everything is ok

days are slowly starting to feel

like weeks months years

i'm starting to feel that i don't

want to be here

i don't want to be here

i want to soar high and wide to places

unknown i want to make a great escape

into oblivion wishing i could go back to

nothing back to no one

i don't want to be twelve again

it seems like i haven't aged when i have

i feel like i can't escape my own skin

the ickiness and nastiness of my past when

i knew i was worthless has come back

do not tell me that everything is fine when

in reality it is not

i'm dying on the inside while trying to make

it seem like i'm living on the out

and what's worst of all no one notices

or they do and pretend that they don't

sad poetry
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Tiaunna N.

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