There is a sundial in my soul that has lived
in half shadow for some time now. My compass has always
pointed me south even when hell was far behind.
My internal clock has been
ticking back and forth on the same goddamn number
since aged four and the seconds seem to quicken at their own pleasure,
regardless of the fact that I can no longer breathe in time.
I have built my home underneath shade, because what is the betrayal
of seeing a sunset without ever feeling the sun?
I have seen comfort and felt its fur brush against my lip
yet I cannot shake this slaughterhouse inside of me.
I can ripen like fruit and split at the seams. This cocoon
can yield no more growth yet I want to stay, for this is all I know.
This growing, without blooming, is not growth, I tell myself.
I promise you, however many times your heart has broken today,
its skin will shed and it will hurt you to the point of believing in every pantheon
but your tears are not wasted.
This tree will blossom as you nourish it with you because all you ever really needed
was yourself.
So tonight, we will dance beneath this tree
and the sun will explode
and the sky will tremble
and we will laugh
and cheer on this earthquake,
because our compass directs us
to this point. Right here.
Right where we are,
where we will grow,
and where we will bloom.
About the Creator
Alana McDermott
Creativity in motion.
Music, art and politics.
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