An Ode to February 2019
An Ode to Us from February's Twists and Turns
Maybe it was the way that you made me avoid her gaze
This month of Sandra Bullock movies and snow days
The trigger of the smile that once uplifted my soul
We watched Adam L. bare his body and voice to America
We ate Papa Johns prepaid and instinctively knew Brady would get it
This tumultuous season for startling news of degeneration
Peaking childhood memories, and holding on to the living Southern half
Claiming I am victory in church, and knowing that with God the blind see
The trip to Baltimore Museum of Art browsing Dega and Mark Bradford
Hope of love springing from the past, that waits until Sobs
I started off with Tumblr posts and Confession Emails to catch her eyes
To think that somehow she is watching my moves to see if I am fine
The blow is I accept that touch will never come, just a beautiful mirage
and the solace that will not come. It was triumphant when Mute-R Kelly
finally won for us. But then again...
February tore me up. She grabbed me by my shirt collar and stared
into my eyes with the breath of God. I got to start Bible app plans and
watch the Stars. I got to chat with ladies that speak Vietnamese and Arabic
while I served love of Wraps, and Chicken burgers with extra sauce
As I sweep those floors of dust and might, and wonder about my restless
nights.
I started the month honoring Langston Hughes for his birthday breaks
open Our month. Somewhere in between I got to watch Alicia's comeback.
I always come back to Mrs.Garza. I got to buy my Aura Spray and cleanse
with Labradorite. Pride Club, Queer community from Colorado to Guyana
how God has blessed me. To show me the world that my love wanted me
to see.
I got to hug my Dog after the Bath he hates. I got to feel his nails scratch
my knees as he greeted me. And the drive from PA to home listening to
Paramore and Kehlani. I wish I had a new Distraction, but I would rather
have the old. The one that promised me our Tahitian dream, and kisses.
I guess Nostalgia can happen to me at 22. I can think about how far I made
it from trips and falls in Middle School. I can think about how far I made
it from Nikki Giovanni and crowded restaurant with mom last year.
February the month for us. Blackness oozed from power to poundings of
spirit killers with Dr.'s in front of their names. As I walked alone, snow
dripping onto my short sandy hair cut from the branches. I know that my
steps are marked with my Ancestors.
February has reminded me of their energy in me. God told me to never
fear, my drive told me to persist, my teacher told me to Let Go and Move
on, my Counselor handed me tissues, my family taught me that we are not
a mere 28 days. We are going to fight this life and win!
About the Creator
SAYHERNAME Morgan Sankofa
Say Her Name
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