Am I OK?

“Are you OK?

Because last weekend when I invited you to my party you said you could come but then canceled last minute…”

“Are you OK?

Because your eyes are red and your nose is runny and…”

“Are you OK?

You never turn in homework late...”

“Are you OK?

I didn’t see you at school today…”

“Are you OK?

You’ve been a little different lately..”

Yes! I am fine!

I am different but aren’t we always changing and evolving? And I have a cold and I didn’t get much sleep last night and I just didn’t have time to finish that assignment and I was at school I guess you just didn’t see me and I’m fine please don’t ask again because

I am running out of lies to tell you.

No, please don’t ask a follow-up question and

No! Please don’t tell me you’re always there to listen

Because I won’t ever utilize that

I don’t want you to think less of me.

I don’t want you to suddenly change your opinion of me

See me in a different light

Alter our friendship in some way

Erase past memories

Reduce the amount of time you spend with me

Modify the image of me in your head

I don’t want to shatter the perfect poised picture you refer to me as.

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry that my problems affect you

I’m sorry I’m dragging you into this

I’m sorry that I’m drowning and you’re the only lifeguard on the beach

And I’m sorry.

Please don’t walk away.

I know I said some stuff back there

And I know I sound ungrateful for everything you been doing

And I know I probably hurt you but

I’m sorry

I don’t know what I want

And I just can’t expect you to fix something

That’s been broken for years

And it’s unfair and I’m sorry.

I’m sorry.