Am I Living or Am I Dying?
All I know is I can’t stop crying.
Am I living or am I dying
With every ounce of happiness I force on myself
Am I living or am I dying
Trying so hard to do things most can do without help
Am I living or am I dying
My reality thoughts aren’t the good ones we’re taught
Am I living or am I dying
Every day when I have to drag myself out of bed to get up
Am I just breathing or am I thriving
When I do feel a little better
Am I just breathing or am I thriving
When I blame bad feelings on the weather
Am I just breathing or am I thriving
When motivation comes and goes
Because I’m not so sure anymore
Is the fight worth all this crying
When all I do is drown myself in wine
Is the fight worth all this crying
If we just work and watch our lives go by
Is the fight worth all this crying
Enough for me to stay here for my families fears
Is the fight worth all this crying
When you’re left with no tears
All I can think about is dying
Been on this earth for everyone but me
I get tired of lying
about all the possibilities
Of me actually spying
the truth in joy’s will
They just say
“If you stopped it all you’d never get that thrill”
Which is true but what they don’t realize is how powerful the darkness is ...all that it can do
You can be living, thriving, giving your all in the fighting
But it’ll come back to MAKE SURE you’re black & blue
It’ll rip and tear at the light
And in all honesty,
I’m not sure I have enough might
To keep on going despite
All the love that surrounds me
All the beauty that astounds me
The feelings those bring never last
Never lasting serotonin,
Ever-lasting ghosts from my past
About the Creator
Ecarg Nosive
I'm a 27 year old writer from Ohio trying to make my passion, my career. Besides writing I enjoy animals, nature, and concerts.
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