Always Thinking
Poem for the mentally stressed and those that don't understand them.
This is for the over thinkers
The ones that can think themselves into a bad mood
The ones that think, think, and think until they realized they're screwed
The ones that can magically turn a yes into a no
And without warning, make something negative without it actually being so
Understand that you're not alone
Understand that this is a pain so many people have known that it's common place
The ones that know it can see it written across your face
We know what it's like to face yourself day and day out
Turning what we're meant to be simple occasions into intricate math equations
It's a crippling sensation when you thought you had the answers but because it's so simple it just starts to fall apart
Then you question whether or not you ever actually had the answer from the start
Why am I like this?
What do I say?
How do I stop myself from being this way?
I honestly do not know
But you know what's funny?
You'll always have someone telling you that if you didn't do that thing you don't like doing maybe it would be a problem
Well gosh! You're a genius! Why didn't I think of that?
Oh wait I did and it didn't work because guess what?
It's never that simple, in fact nothing is
Most of us have been like this since we were kids...
Why don't you get it?
This isn't some kind of game
This is my brain
I need actual guidance because I'm driving myself insane
But yet I chose to confide in you
I've tried and tried
And this is what you give me?
What do expect from me?
Do you not like what you see?
I didn't ask to be this
The only me that I can be is trapped within this
And this is the best that you'll get because if I can be this
Then the I that is me does not exist
I don't know if you've realized it but I've turned over thinking into an art
You see this is where it starts...
The paradoxical loop where I build a hypothesis
And simultaneously tear myself apart...
I blame myself for thinking you would understand
But if I can't even understand myself I don't think anyone can...
What can I say?
It's the price you pay when you're always thinking
About the Creator
Romeo Curley
I am a gamer, a poet, and a hopeless romantic struggling with the brain that can probably power the Pentagon filled with tons of emotions that haven't been discussed because I tend to bottle things up. So, I write hoping to shed light on it
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