All the Things I Could Have Said

Yesterday I sat and told you about how I doubt everything. I make a conscious decision to doubt everything that I am told, and to question everything I feel. I explained that through doing this I establish trust in the facts and faith in my opinions. You listened about how I found my faith, through refusing to except blind faith, and deliberating over everything.

What you couldn’t listen to, because I was too scared to say was that I have always questioned us, but I’ve never been able to doubt us. I spent so long questioning whether I should meet you that I almost didn’t go. But thankfully something in the back of my mind, that resembles gumption, encouraged me to that date.

I didn’t tell you that I spent our whole first date wondering if I liked you. Realising the answer was yes, as it hurt to turn and leave. But you left a smile so wide it hurt my cheeks. I didn’t tell you that every compliment you said I questioned in my head. Although, I could never doubt the sincerity in your eyes. I could have told you about our first kiss, that I questioned if I wanted to be there. Only for every inch of me to answer that I never wanted to be anywhere else.

I’ve sat and questioned how it was that I could fall so fast. However, I’ve never once doubted I’m falling. I have wondered if I have ever loved someone more, though I am aware that I have not. I question how you stole my heart, but with no doubt that it is yours.