Aha

yeah you love to take from me

make me feel empty

but you are not helping

it's unhealthy

only take what you want

and just let me be

use me

i'm roaring

with rage

stuck up in this cage

you chew me

and don't swallow

i do not follow

if i lead you get mad

start hollerin

aha

ur so funny with ur jokes

im a joke

why do i let myself succumb to this

it's unreal

i am on the search of bliss

you do not define me

but here i lay helplessly

resentfully

dreadfully

aha

so i laugh

but i'm still sad

i self destruct

let myself get beat up

but why

why do i do this

send myself to the bottom of the abyss

because of you?

because of me?

because this world isn't all it seems to be

basically

and so i laugh

only i can improve

if i choose

i must remove

all the negativity

that includes you

i no longer refuse

laugh it off in the pursuit

of goodbyes.