"After Us"

After Us

Never watch them both at the same time.

Nowadays I envy you in the lime light.

Wish I could kiss goodnight.

But it's alright.

Willie Nelson taught me every cowboy must die.

Well I like to think of you as the wrong time,

Wrong place, that just isn't really on my mind.

Instead I'm looking for sad songs to write,

Trying the best I can to wrong every single current right,

And there's only so much I can do on a ride.

I feel hollow.

After us, I started getting homesick.

Your arms were my shelter,

But it ain't shit.

Telling everyone you never loved me,

I'm a psychic,

I could predict your moves from the beginning.

But even then,

I was dumb enough to fall for you,

Fall into a pit of spikes I saved from you.

Honey.

Sugar, sweetie, daddy's little girl,

You really never know,

She just fucked up my whole world,

and with a smile of elastic,

Her skin is sort of plastic,

I think I'm gonna be sick.

But she had the time for you,

Texting everyone that she ever knew.

I guess it's my own fault.

I let her pour me down the sink like salt.

Yeah.

After us, I hate myself,

Like I always did.

But before you made me ignore it.

I thought I was okay, I thought I was doing it right,

But you came down with your hand of God, and only made it spite.

You were right?

You were wrong and I can prove it.

Every time I said I loved you,

You'd just move it. Like a shoe in your way,

Or a pebble that stays.

Or a home that burns to the ground

While I'm still inside,

and you act like I'm not around.

But you weren't inside my head like you thought you were.

Every single word you said, it really hurt.

Yes, I said things about you too,

But the difference between us

Is that I really loved you.

And I still do,

I don't know why,

But I still fucking do.

Hit me on the head with your baseball.

Best if we don't talk too long.

I might as well give up, I'll just fucking die,

Since you still somehow want me here, I'll just fucking cry.

Same difference.

All I ever want is to make you fine,

To make you feel like a serpent in this sea of mine.

State of mind is easier to see,

I just can't picture you without me.

But if you wanna go, I can't change my fate,

Let alone I can't complain of what's on the plate.

Desperate.

After us, I started losing weight.

I really never shave my face,

But who do you care, why would you smile?

I can't believe I ever thought you were worth while.

Call me up when you need the memo,

Baby girl, I don't see you in my head though.

Probably shouldn't watch that video,

If you wanna see me die,

Just say so,

And fall in love.

And fall in love.

And fall in love.

And fall in love.

And fall in love.