every second of every minute of
every day of every week of
every month of every year
it is in my thoughts
i wonder at night as i close my eyes
will i ever open them
i wonder what will happen if i do
i wonder if i will feel like
getting out of bed
or if my eyes will water at the thought
of even sitting up or
lifting the covers
i tell myself i need to
i need to get out of bed
i need to get ready
i need to walk into school
and i sure as hell need to smile
like i woke up and jumped out
of the bed that ties me down
i tell myself i can lie for one more minute
that turns into ten
which turns into an hour and
i don't care
i don't care if i pass my exams
i can't mentally pick myself up to sit and study
i want to, i really do
atleast a part of me does
I wish i could want to rise
without the part of me
that laughs at the hope i have left
the part that wants me to stay
in the same position forever
Have you ever had a battle with yourself?
my mind is a paradox
constantly contradicting itself
do other people feel the same as i?
i am so alone
my mouth cries for help
but my hands cover the noise
into a muffled sound
that i hear of every second of every minute
of every day of every week of
every month of every year
it is always in my thoughts.
About the Creator
Cassidy Kirk
I am a young freelance journalist who also enjoys creative writing as you can see from my work.
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