A Moment of Despair

Upright I pounce, as sweat pours down my face

I'm gasping and fretting all over the place

I scratch at my skin and start to riff at my hair

My mind starts to spin and I feel in despair

I hold on to my chest, as my heart pounds like a drum

I listen to it's rhythm, my body starts to feel numb

I jump out of bed, pins and needles in my feet

My body cries as I walk, feeling as if it has been beat

I look in the mirror, but can't bare to look no more

I scream and I cry, as I fall to the floor

Rocking to a simple sound, a drip from the bathroom tap

My body is shaking, eyes wide, hands fiddling in my lap

I start to feel paranoid, as every noise becomes clear

I shake and I tremble, my heart now pounding from fear

I creep out of the bathroom, and make my way to the front door

Then I hear a familiar sound, I've heard frequently before

Asking for a drink, my daughter stands eagerly waiting

"So these were the sounds I heard" my mind starts debating

A sense of calm has now rushed over me

After all I can't allow my Daughter to see

What an anxious nervous wreck her Mother can be

Otherwise who would she look up to if not to me?

I flash a smile as I hand her a drink

I cry inside as my mind starts to think

Of what I wanted to do not five minutes ago

This world of depression I want to let go

But it holds on to me, not me on to it

This dark hollow world, this never ending bottomless pit.