I’ve heard people guess
on what depression feels like
but the only thing close
is that none of them are even close
to what it feels like
It feels like a crying pain
coming from your chest
An overbearing pain
that they say only lasts for a moment
but feels like forever
It feels like being held
at the bottom of a pool
struggling to gasp for air
flailing arms
pleading for help
And there are people surrounding you
but none of them see you
Or maybe they do
but they choose to overlook
what they do not understand
It feels like sleepless nights
and tired eyes
and no matter
how hard you try to sleep
your brain refuses to rest
It refuses to stop
turning over
everything that haunts you
It feels like begging God
over and over again
to take away the pain
attending church every Sunday
searching for a way out
but no answer comes
or at least not one that you can hear
It feels like having people
so close to you
and pushing them away
because you know
that it’s only a matter of time
Leave them
before they leave you
It feels like a nightmare
only it isn't just restricted to your sleep
It follows you every single day
at work
with friends and family
anywhere
and everywhere
and in the moment when you forget its there
when you smile or laugh
it jumps you
hits you like a bus
and you are reminded
that it was never gone
and it will never leave
So when someone
tries to explain what its like
to be depressed
even though
they have never experienced it themselves
I laugh
because the only thing close
is that none of them are even close
to what it feels like
About the Creator
mads
a college girl who is really good at being bad at life
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