Hey, you don’t really know me anymore and you I hardly recognize
We stare at that dreaded picture showing the pure beauty as we become uglier
By the second, like Dorian Gray, except the complete opposite
You might not get the reference, but you will as you become less innocent
“Never innocent” you think, always crying full of guilt
Spoiler alert, you stop crying but engage in worse habits
I notice your arms are clean not scarred by intentional habits
The scar on your left leg being the only one, the rest you don’t recognize
If you looked at me, you might see a lot you hate, a face riddled with guilt
“Why am I still upset?” you might ask as your smile fades showing a side uglier
You still laugh, to get people to stop staring, yeah, it isn’t as innocent
From cow jokes to jokes with no punch, you became the opposite
The humor is still there, but it’s tasteless now, just laughs for reasons opposite
You joke about death, suicide, and flip off the grim reaper as part of bad habits
Hoping for that scythe to take your head and end the tale that isn’t so innocent
A Final Destination, you’ll draw a map to, a map you don’t recognize
I know, horror movies freak you out, but they appeal more later as CGI becomes uglier
You learn to laugh at the awful things, while still hoping for a time where you feel no guilt
Unfortunately, as hard as you try, you still care and can’t wash away the guilt
You worry what people think, you doubt yourself still, that’s where we aren’t opposite
You do things you never thought you could do, concealing the self uglier
You get up on stage, recite a poem from memory, but still can’t break other habits
After all of it you’re still afraid, you still freeze, that you surely recognize
You ask a girl out, get rejected, decide to stay alone, remember times that were innocent
When you cheered for Batman, and not the Joker, when you were the most innocent
When you didn’t question the hero and hated the bad guys with no guilt
Now you like characters a bit more broken, characters you might not recognize
Bruce Wayne isn’t perfect, and does questionable things that are indeed opposite
Of what you thought he was which lets you keep watching, never breaking the habits
You stop making stories about Power Rangers and make up stories that might look uglier
However they help more, possibly saving you from a future uglier
They lose limbs, they get sick, they question things, they long for times more innocent
They exist so you’ll stop feeling alone, stop being the only one with these weird habits
Good news though, after friendships that left you sinking, you find people with as much guilt
Bad news however, you find the negative, search it out, look for what makes them opposite
Of how you originally viewed them, find something to hate, something you recognize
There are happy times with less guilt, where you don’t succumb to bad habits
Then there are uglier days that make you want to die, looking in a direction opposite
Of where you want to be, the not so innocent road that you’ll sadly recognize
About the Creator
Andrew Dixon
Hey there I'm Andrew! I like video games, movies, and anime among other things. I write poetry and fictional stories although most of the time I write reviews which are mostly just my thoughts on video games and etc.
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