My love for you was eternal,
But your love for me was not,
The hurt was not always verbal,
But I could not let go because I was in a love knot,
Everything you did to me made you feel immortal
When I said I was sorry I did not mean I wanted your fingers hugging my neck,
You thought you were a thug,
All anyone ever saw was how I could bedeck,
When I looked in the mirror all I could see was a pill bug,
All I wanted was a little love; just a spec
You have shown love to many,
But all I received was hate,
Oh the tyranny,
I will never admit I could see our fate,
Every move was made warily
Holidays were the best,
My presents were always tears,
But never did I protest,
All the years,
Oh yes everyone looked at me and said how blessed!
You brainwashed me very well,
I always complied,
Yet the only way you could talk to me was through a yell,
To whom I was closest with I could not confide,
Please someone help me out of this Hell!
I have had enough,
I am beautiful without you,
But he called my bluff,
All I could do was construe,
I will never be that tough
I was locked up in a cage,
All I dreamt of was letting go,
As I grew older in age,
Soon I began to lose my glow,
And you became full of more rage
You knew I wanted to leave,
So you would tease,
But I would misperceive,
I did my best to appease,
But never did I achieve
So I let go of my ambition,
And went back to my cage that kept me away from life,
I failed my mission,
And soon you began to strife,
On came another condition
Here comes the awful word no one likes to hear
I was engulfed with depression,
How much can I endure,
He was full of suppression,
His goal was to make my thought of leaving to disappear
Now people notice I am unhappy,
And he starts to shower me with expensive gifts,
Behind our closed door he was still snappy,
My life was full of what ifs,
However he made sure I was always snazzy
I had the thought again,
My family noticed,
He was like a stain,
I was just his hostess,
Until it was time for me to break this chain
I broke the thing sustaining me,
It was like I was finally free,
But even he could agree,
I could still not flee,
It was sort of a plea
He lingered everywhere,
Even in my nightmares,
All I did was fill my head with prayer,
But nothing compares,
I just needed some air
He was my shadow,
I could still feel his touch,
He was no longer a friend of mine just a foe,
I had to find a different crutch,
So i pushed him way below
I make my new chapter,
He is completely gone,
He is no longer my captor,
Oh how I love to sit on my lawn,
I no longer have a master
I attend support groups,
Life is a little easier,
I still have some loops,
My smile is a little cheesier,
I guess you can say I have shown my drupes
I have a different life now,
I have friends,
But anyhow,
I now make amends,
And wipe the hate I have for you from my brow
I love myself and I have learned to love again.
Not for a relationship yet,
I abstain from that till I am truly healed,
I will never again choose to stay with a threat,
But my life will not be put on yield
I will forgive but I will not forget,
Your intentions left internal scars,
My life is not yet set,
I will never forget the start of ours,
My love for you was eternal
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