A Day in My Mind

Trigger warning: mental illness, depression, depressing thoughts

Note: This is just a little poem about how I feel inside my head. Kind of as a way to get it out there, rather than repressing it inside myself. The repeated verse is what's constantly going through my mind all day. It's my reality as a recent graduate of 2017, having no clue where my passion is, or what I'm doing with my life, the best I have right now is poetry and writing.

I have words and imagination

I have paper and pens

But zero motivation

I have a keyboard and auto-correct

I feel nothing

I am worthless

I am pointless

I am nothing

Between my phone and hand is glue

All my friends at my fingertips

Yet I still feel blue

Phone bills and no job

I feel nothing

I am worthless

I am pointless

I am nothing

Words and advice

In one ear, out the other

Stress expands like a grain of rice

As the water boils and steams

I feel nothing

I am worthless

I am pointless

I am nothing

The outside is scary

I'm afraid I am lazy

So my legs remain hairy

The only one wearing pants at the beach

I feel nothing

I am worthless

I am pointless

I am nothing

I suffer anxiety

I suffer depression

I suffer PTSD

With all these illnesses. . .

I feel nothing

I am worthless

I am pointless

I am nothing