You told me you loved me as I left,
it felt as empty as the box of condoms on your bedside table.
Walking out into the morning sun with no makeup, messy hair, cum dripping down my leg.
I looked up at the radiant morning sky, never have I felt so alive.
As I washed the sweat, cum and kisses from my body, I knew the spell was finally broken.
sometimes i think you’re a monster
but i know it’s in vain
because when i called you a sweetie
was when you felt the most pain
it’s not weird that you behave like an island
when all the boats left
as soon as they saw the horizon
without you where would i be?
in a completely different life
because within you i saw me
and i was holding a knife.
the purple bruises on my knees
matches the dark circles under your eyes
and the way you speak, so pretty it's almost
like taking a stroll through an endless garden.
but your mind is dark, filled with the tiniest
stars that twinkle in your eyes.
i kissed someone who wasn't you,
now i don't know what to do.
i knew we weren't in love,
but oh god, we could've been.
hell in your eyes, heaven in your touch,
what was i to you? i ask through glassy eyes;
"a waste of time" you reply, i guess i never meant much.
"but i can't live without you"—"then die"
you reply as you slide the knife into my heart.
is it too much to say "i love you"? too soon?
time is a concept & i'm not promised to another second
but neither are you, so let's live in the present.
are you scared of the future? afraid of what it holds?
just take my hand darling, i'll show you the world.