A Calling out for Love

I shut off

It just stopped

I became so broken and so numb that I just shut off all emotion

I didn't want to feel anymore

I didn't want to feel that hurt again

I didn't even want to feel love

but my body couldn't help it

My conscious cried for love

It begged and screamed for it

no matter how much I wanted to shut off

My subconscious wants it

pushing back the fact that it hurt so much

forgetting how much it killed me

My body cries for affection

It cries for love

but when i get it from them...

I do not want it

it is not the language of love and affection my body cries for

it's true love

And I had only felt that once in my life...

I'm drowning at high tide

in an oblivion

a dark abyss

reaching my hand out hoping yours will reach back

because darling

My Heart is calling out for Your love.