A.C.F.H

A few days ago I was filled with hope,

I finally get to leave this place I call home,

A new beginning awaits in another place,

After months of walking a lonely dark road,

A light has been put upon my path.

Just yesterday the light dimmed,

My hope has been lost.

I'm still going where I want,

But I'm going with a burden weighing me down.

I refuse to carry this depression from one state to another,

But it feels as if satan just walked in to hold my hand.

My heart feels heavy,

For seven days I was at peace,

Now I'm back to the reality of fighting for happiness every single day.

I just want to go back to the place that made me feel so well,

Around genuinely nice people who have not put me through hell.

For just a few days I could walk into a place where no one had judgemental looks on their face.

My heart feels as if it's being torn out of my chest.

God if you're there please end this.

I've reached all I can deal with and I don't want to push everyone away again,

I've waited so long for things to get better.

This all sounds selfish of me, but for so long I've put everyone I know above me.

So please if you're one that claims to love me,

Take two seconds of your life to pray for me.