it is 8:38am
and i’m thinking
about that boy with the blonde hair and blue eyes,
he is going to be the one to break your heart
the one that smells like the wind after a storm
but when that heart break is over
you will fall for someone that is opposite
completely and utterly opposite
he has dark hair and dark, fiery brown eyes
eyes that make you feel like you are looking at wildfire
but that first boy, he is going to take a fragment of you
a remnant that you can’t get back
they tell you that virginity isn’t even that big of a deal
it’s not even a real commodity
because
in just a matter of seconds it’s gone.
so why does it make you feel so attached?
it’s that first fucking time
that first time is what gets you devoted to making them stay
you’ve never been that close with anyone
mentally or physically
then when that second boy comes around
he is only looking for one thing
you are lonely
you want to give him every single thing the world won’t
and at the end of the day you give him what he is searching for
so that’s all your friendship turns to
with all of these people just wanting to have sex and leave
we drown our pain in the bitter taste of vodka
we bury our self worth with the shovels we buy so we can smell the grass that was once freshly mowed and green
they say the grass is greener on the other side
so you try to join that side and now the grass has turned to a brown color
and it’s all your fault
we go out to different people to feel the pattern on their sheets,
to hear their low voice
maybe it will sound like the boys that once wanted you
you give these boys all your trust
turns out you can’t trust them
never let the boys with eyes like an ocean
or the boys with fire in their hearts
make your heart a prisoner
because they will hold your heart captive
And manage to catch the ocean on fire
but eventually you have to get over it
because
life sucks and then you die
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