14 Was the Age

14 was the age that I became a slut,

He asked me for sex, no, so he tried to put it up my but.

Dominating this vulnerable child, celebrating with his sinister smile.

Capture the moment, let me show your friends,

Let the whole class know, feels like you'll never see the end.

Trying to stay strong but they all stare,

Fully clothed but naked,

I think my mind needs a repair...

15 was the age I knew I'd never be pure,

My ex asked me to go with him for a haircut,

The last time I left there, I left running out the back door.

16 was the age I decided enough was enough,

My energy was strengthening but my heart couldn't feel love,

They were haunting me and I didn't feel tough.

Justice, closure was needed, it's what I craved...

Every day. Anxious. Next came my 'time to be saved'.

The justice system, only that's what it lacks.

Embarrassed, confronted and adrenaline running paths—

"What coloured knickers where you wearing that night?"

"Well get you support, it'll be alright!"

It's word against word,

The evidence is too weak,

I'm an old male middle class detective and it wasn't a priority for

me.

I guess you forgot about that counselling...

I don't need your support.

I'm strong and I have goals.

Start up a campaign to support—

"Victims" of sexual assault and

Rape.

...That word I just can't say.

17 was the age I realigned with my soul.

I finished that counselling I'd found on my own.

I'd begun changing my lifestyle, working on feeling whole.

Begun being the change that I wanted to see.

Knowing this was the only way I'd ever be free.

It's time to put these plans into action.

I started a chain reaction.

We can't grow without a challenge.

Bring it on I say—

With compassion...

18 is the age where my fire is lit,

Living in peace with my past goals at my tips.

The most beautiful and difficult thing I've done in my life—

Expanding through time, my mind is now mine.

The triggers still come but it just reminds me this:

"Our voice is our most powerful gift"

Don't worry I'll utilise it as this is why I'm here.

When you haunt me I decode you and figure out why you're there.

Analyse the triggers—don't let them pass by,

Use it for growth, be brave and don't get hung up on why-

All will be clear when we work with love in our hearts,

We're in safe hands on these ethereal paths.